I really wonder, what have gone wrong with HIM, or me and us?On Thursday night, we began quarrelling, quite a major one. I was crying uncontrollably. Cannot really remember what caused the quarrel. But, it left me feeling really afraid and helpless.Yesterday night was also not a very pleasant night. The beginning was. When we met for dinner. Things was fine. Only after our dinner, he start his "pranks" again. If that is what he calls it. When I got home, flared up at him while talking on the telephone with him. Think I shocked him with the three words I say. He paused for a moment upon hearing me say that and continue quarrelling with me. This time round, I was really pissed. Was breathing real heavily, heart was pounding real fast and hard. It has been years since I last was in such a temper.Tonight was not much of a difference. Had another misunderstanding. Just received a call from him, after I messaged him, pleading him to call me. He said that he was just playing around with me earlier on. He did not mean a thing.Does he knows how hurt I was and still am now? Does he ever consider my feelings? Is he taking me as a toy to play with? He keeps doing such stuff, then later say it was meant to be just a prank. I really wonder... Is it worth for me to still keep on staying by his side? Why am I still so silly as to keep doing so? Helping him in everything and anything. I am at a lost... Always crying by myself, with no guts to voice out my unhappiness.
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
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